Life is choices. I’ve always wanted to be a vegan. I’ve been a vegan for three months at a stretch, a record I’ve matched and also fallen short of in subsequent stabs. I don’t want to eat animals. Ideally, I don’t want to. But I do. I love milk; I wish I had it more …
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Life is choices.

I’ve always wanted to be a vegan.

I’ve been a vegan for three months at a stretch, a record I’ve matched and also fallen short of in subsequent stabs.

I don’t want to eat animals. Ideally, I don’t want to.

But I do.

I love milk; I wish I had it more often. I wish I had cheese every day; every meal. I wish I had yogurt each day.

I never gave much thought to giving up dairy; I’ve gone off dairy and I never ever noticed any change at all in mucus levels. It was great to later go back to ice cream and sour cream and cream cheese.

I used to think eggs were such an amazing wonder food, and then I discovered what they do with all the boy chicks who hatch.

I went off of eggs completely.

And that lasted for all of, really, maybe six months at most.

I eat them less, but I still eat them.

Mostly, it’s a lack of mindfulness, I think.

I never thought there was anything wrong in consuming dairy products. But, the more I learn and read, the more I really wonder.

I *do* think there’s something wrong and unnecessary in killing all these boy chicks. Yet, I still continue to (occasionally) buy eggs. Yes, I’ve cut down significantly — but aren’t I still unnecessarily killing all these newborn animals?

I read a book on veganism, and like most books on veganism, I didn’t like it. I’m personally deeply uncomfortable with the confrontational attitudes and expressions of many vegans, which I really believe fail to win over any listeners, or to even provide a catalyst for a listener to give any further thought beyond the immediate, awkward conversation. Vegans like this deeply sadden me. I often am uncomfortable with and grow nervous around the company of vegans; I find a lot of vegans to be haters, not lovers. If I were to be a vegan, how could I change that in myself? What different attitude or expression could be better, and more loving, and more generous and warm?

After reading this book, I thought a lot about veganism, and I decided I would really have to give it a more serious shot. If I failed after three months, then it could just be a momentary setback, a fail for just one day, or just one meal. I learned from giving up sugar that you should congratulate yourself for the success periods and learn from the weaker times, and not to be hard on yourself. I’ve mostly given up sugar. Why can’t I give up animal products?

We’re more addicted to animals than we are to oil; I sure am, I think. I want to break the addiction.

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