I sometimes write in my gratitude journal (which I neglect to do consistently each day, to be frank) how happy and grateful and lucky I feel to have found such an affordable yoga studio which I also happen to like and feel comfortable in. Right now, this is a different kind of thankfulness. I have …
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Hot Yoga, Year Two: Gratitude

I sometimes write in my gratitude journal (which I neglect to do consistently each day, to be frank) how happy and grateful and lucky I feel to have found such an affordable yoga studio which I also happen to like and feel comfortable in.

Right now, this is a different kind of thankfulness.

I have an acquaintance; for a very long time, he was a friend.

He’s woefully out of shape. And for a long time, I really encouraged and coaxed and cajoled him to get into something: soccer (which he was a fan of), or swimming, or a gym routine, or whatever.

A couple of times, he would approach me and ask for a workout routine plan. I am *not* a personal coach, however I would make up some list that would seem useful to me at the time.

He never did any of them.

And the thing is, he used to complain and fret all the time about his physical condition, and lament how poorly out of shape he was, and how it affected his game with the ladies, and how it affected him as an actor.

So, why didn’t he ever turn off World Cup and go play? Why, as an actor who rhapsodize to anyone at all about his enthusiasm for David Smukler’s (yoga-based) voice and breathing classes, wouldn’t he ever go to a yoga class? It could only improve and build on his weekend-long education with David Smukler.

I don’t know why, exactly. But I imagine that it ultimately came down to depression. It could be, say, a “lack of motivation,” but that is probably just an expression of depression.

He was in a downward spiral of unhappiness with his health and condition, and trapped, unable to do anything about it.

I find it hard to go to yoga class, as the multitudes of long-time followers of my yoga journal know well. I really don’t want to go on many days. I always leave glad that I went, grateful that I made it, but I often enter uneasy and focused on good solid breathing, so I can relax.

I may find it hard, but some find it impossible. I’ll try to be thankful that I only find it tough, and not out of the question.