This window scoreboard is helping me so much that time feels different now when I think (or “feel”) about not eating sugar: on Day 40, Day 100 seemed so far off, yet having flipped the numbers over for tomorrow, Day 200 doesn’t.  Speaking of Day 200, here’s a bowl of chocolate – – leftover from …
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Days Without Sugar: Day 140

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This window scoreboard is helping me so much that time feels different now when I think (or “feel”) about not eating sugar: on Day 40, Day 100 seemed so far off, yet having flipped the numbers over for tomorrow, Day 200 doesn’t. 

Speaking of Day 200, here’s a bowl of chocolate –

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– leftover from a collage project I’ve had saved up for a rainy day:

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It’s for Day 200.  As always, I’m surprised how long such a simple cut & paste craft undertaking can take: you shouldn’t be a perfectionist when working with other people’s garbage.  I bought chocolate bars for their packaging, because I couldn’t find any whole castoff wrappers in one piece, and because, like a totem charm for the spell, it seemed important to fully represent a former personal bad habit and unhealthy indulgence.  I slit these open by the underside seams and slipped the candy out; plopping from the plastic sleeve, down into the bowl, the chocolate pieces seemed sort of stool-like.  I felt repulsed to touch them; they felt waxy and fake to my fingers.  I used to eat these by the handful.  (Literally.)

Not anymore, though.

I confess: I ate some cashew almond clusters today, which contained organic cane sugar.  They were a present, and seemed more or less healthy (being mostly nuts and seeds).  I feel fine about it; they didn’t taste sweet (at all), I had an active day, and it’s good to eat nuts. The nuts I buy are raw, in bulk, and there’s nothing wrong with accepting a gift (unless it’s heroin or crystal meth or whatever (duh)). 

Day 200 feels like an easy goal to hit; I want to make it more than I want candy.